So that happened.

[mis_creation]

Well, okay. I guess I can't really call myself a blogger, can I? One post every two months or so does not a blog make.

I have no idea if I can fix that or not.

But I did come up with an idea, I don't know how it'll go.

I think I want to start working on my self esteem in earnest. To that end, I think I want to take a picture of myself every day for at least a month. And I'm going to post it. Maybe I should make a tumblr, I hear that's a nice photo blog resource. Or I could just put it on facebook, I suppose...

I think I just need to start seeing myself as I am, not how others perceive me or how I sort of perceive myself. Just as a person, with flaws and strengths like everyone else.

But, in other less mopey news, there will be a full lunar eclipse around midnight the 21st. The 21st is also the solstice and a full moon. Big day for celestial events. I will be at a Solstice party with at least a few friends on that day, so that will be fun.

Oh, and I got my earlobes pierced in October. They're still a little goopy, but in general doing well.

Comments

[dukerevolution.livejournal.com]

You have to remember that you are not a flawed human being - you are a human being with flaws. You're not in a race with anyone, and your success is measured only by YOU, not what that jerkoff in high school ended up doing with himself.

[mis-creation.livejournal.com]

Thank you for the words of encouragement, Ryan! Sounds like you've been having a very interesting time of it lately, huh?

[ayla-britestar.livejournal.com]

Good for you to want to feel better about yourself by improving your self-esteem! It's a difficult journey to truly let go of self-insecurities and feelings of self-worthlessness and replace those feelings and thoughts will self-love and self-acceptance. (Yes, I'm speaking from personal experience here, having recently been through this myself.)

May you find healing and peace on your journey.

[mis-creation.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I'm working on it. One of my rules is not to delete any of the pictures I take, unless they look beyond utterly stupid.

[broadwriter.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'd tell you you're beautiful, but you know I'm biased, so it probably wouldn't help. But you are!

I've been missing you lately. Some of my crazy vivid dreams lately have been of travelling and never getting to Colorado for whatever reason. Usually vehicular. But I think of you a lot! And I hope November went well for you!

[mis-creation.livejournal.com]

I know you're biased, but I should take compliments gracefully no matter where they come from. So thank you. *hugs*

You, too. We should set up regular times to call/chat.

And I put a little bug in your mom's ear about doing Sirens next year, they've never had a songwriting workshop, and the theme is monsters, so there's some fun research possibilities there.